Because of Jenny Biz
I only met you once or twice, Jenny, when you visited Jonathon at Bammel, but I could tell you were something special. When I read your blog, I am touched by the amount of posts about your daughter and husband. It is evident you loved deeply and fully.
Yesterday was a hard "mom" day for me. My own daughter threw fit after fit. My ears were ringing and I was exhausted by the end of the day.
As I laid in bed crying out to God on your family's behalf, the face of my own little girl kept coming to my mind. "Erin....." the Lord seemed to whisper, "this is what you can do to honor Jenny. Love your own family deeply and fully."
I wondered if I had been the one to die yesterday what Selah would remember of me. Would she remember how I lost my temper after the second hour of screaming? Would she remember how I curled up in a ball at the end of her bed and cried, "Lord! Give me wisdom! I'm at a loss!" What if that was the last image my daughter had of me?
Today, in honor of you, Jenny, because of you, I am taking Selah out. I'm not sure what we will do. But, it will be frivolous and fun. It will be a "just because" day. It will be a memory making day. It will be a "just because I love you" day. It will be a "remember this for a long time" day.
I am determined, Jenny Biz, that if I die today, THIS day is what Selah will remember of me. She will remember she had a mama that loved deeply and fully.
Thanks, Jenny. You will be missed deeply and fully.
posted by erinlo at 6:00 AM
7 Comments:
Oh Erin! You just put into words my thoughts from the last two weeks and the pain I felt last night with my own kids. It was so hard getting through the evening and then putting them to bed wondering if I was doing enough, being enough.
Everyone wants to leave a legacy for their children. I pray that sweet daughter of Jenny's will someday know the legacy her mother left for her. I hope I can do the same for mine.
This is a beautiful tribute to Jenny. I didn't know her, but I've been so moved by her story, the love of her family and the mission of her life. She is a role model for all of us!
Praying for this hurting family today.
wow friend you say it so well! It was a hard mom day for me too and I also hugged my little one just a little tighter. I am so thankful and I do thank him for even the tough days.
love ya....
I need this kind of reminder almost daily. I'm sorry to hear of this loss that has clearly touched many.
You're always so candid Erin, so I've passed along to you the Beautiful Blogger award.
Erin, I hope you were able to watch the video of her service. I went and it was amazing. It was truly the closest to heaven I've ever felt. The love of her family and their devotion to God just radiated from them even through their deep sorrow.
I love this. Beautiful words. Beautiful attitude.
I don't know you, but I knew Jenny, and she would have smiled at your post and your picture. Don't lose hope. Your daughter will someday appreciate all that you are doing for her.
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